刚，跟二姐去她中学朋友的聚会。。。
不多。。。
只是她，加另2人。。。
说真的，很感慨。。。
其中的一人，跟我二姐大概2年没见面。。。
另一个，同公司，不同部门。。。
但，还是聊天聊的很开心。。。
话题不断，
说说以前中学，
说说现在。。。
说说未来。。。
还有以前中学的朋友，有些已婚，已有孩子。。。
没人，会拿出手机，按个不断。。。
就真的很聚会的聚会。。。
再看自己。。。
明明中学毕业后，
还是有联络，
不多，
聚会，
很少，
很难齐人，
但，即使全都在，
很多时候，还是冷场，
偶尔，
都是自己谈自己的，
好像，没了以前那种感觉。。。
每个人，都有自己的朋友圈，
好像有了更感情深厚的朋友。。。
是我的问题？
太被动？
很常看到，自己认为的好友，跟他的好友比自己更常联络。。。
有时，感觉自己被忽略了。。。
明明，
我们才毕业3年。。。
友谊，真的能万岁？
真的那么容易维持吗？？
每次每次，要聚会，好像都很难。。。
考试，读书，忙。。。
等等。。。
每次提出的秋雪，也会累吧？！
该主动些，
去联络+经营这段友谊了。。。
感慨中。。。
感触。。。
30 Dec 2013
17 Dec 2013
很想出门玩。。。
今天，
就突然很先出去玩~~~
星期日晚，
莹问要跟他回家乡（太平）没，
陪她，顺便逛逛。。。
说真的，
好想去。。。
没去过太平，
没试过跟她一块去那么远。。。
只是，
想只是想。。。
还是得要父母同意。。。
问老爸，
没反应。。。
老妹就不断说：不要去不要去。。。
我想她的原因只是不要我出街，而他的做工把。。。
就这样，
机会没了。。。
老爸总说，最近生意不好，蔬菜太贵，不如出去玩。。。
但，每次都只是说。。。
期待，然后失望。。。
做工，上网，弄东西，然后，又开学了。。。
很累。。。
每次每次，都在想，为什么，我妹有休息的机会，而我，却没有？
一到五，上课读书，
六日，做工。。。
偶尔，星期六要回学校，
却被说故意把东西放在周六，不做工。。。。
但，我是人啊。。。
每天每天，24小时，都在转，都在忙。。。
难道，我不能自私下，偷懒一下，稍微休息吗？？
成绩要好，奖学金，才能保持，
但，
我又有多少的时间，可以认真读书？
考试要到，要你忙爸，让我休息，也不能吗？
真的，好想，自己，一人，驾车，到想去的地方去，即使，近近的地方，适耕庄，port dickson，也好。。。
好想，好想，去海边。。。。。。
就突然很先出去玩~~~
星期日晚，
莹问要跟他回家乡（太平）没，
陪她，顺便逛逛。。。
说真的，
好想去。。。
没去过太平，
没试过跟她一块去那么远。。。
只是，
想只是想。。。
还是得要父母同意。。。
问老爸，
没反应。。。
老妹就不断说：不要去不要去。。。
我想她的原因只是不要我出街，而他的做工把。。。
就这样，
机会没了。。。
老爸总说，最近生意不好，蔬菜太贵，不如出去玩。。。
但，每次都只是说。。。
期待，然后失望。。。
做工，上网，弄东西，然后，又开学了。。。
很累。。。
每次每次，都在想，为什么，我妹有休息的机会，而我，却没有？
一到五，上课读书，
六日，做工。。。
偶尔，星期六要回学校，
却被说故意把东西放在周六，不做工。。。。
但，我是人啊。。。
每天每天，24小时，都在转，都在忙。。。
难道，我不能自私下，偷懒一下，稍微休息吗？？
成绩要好，奖学金，才能保持，
但，
我又有多少的时间，可以认真读书？
考试要到，要你忙爸，让我休息，也不能吗？
真的，好想，自己，一人，驾车，到想去的地方去，即使，近近的地方，适耕庄，port dickson，也好。。。
好想，好想，去海边。。。。。。
12 Dec 2013
just write~
degree year 2 semester 1 is end~
end just like that~
a semester without 100% effort~
dunno what i doing actually~
not perform my best on presentation~
sick when final exam coming soon~
feel not well during exam~
no mood study when exam~
at some timing, feel i not yet prepare for study~
learned japanese level one during the sem~
erm....
it is cute, but unfortunately i cant memorize and trace each hiragana n katakana immediately~
promise myself to perform better in the coming semester~
priority should n must given to my study!
just let the boutique as a part time~
realise i really weak in marketing and publicity~
lesser and lesser people talking about the boutique~
the sales is considered bad~
not so good~
perhaps is due to just newly open~
sponsor the cultural exhibition in college, but no one redeem it~
realise i set the voucher terms n conditions wrongly~
it is not attractive people to visit the shop~
now semester break~
2 weeks~
not long compared to last time~
planning:
manage the boutique,
do some ACCA past year....
try learn japanese myself by song lyrics~
and try to expert the hiragana n katakana....
if i want to get a better cgpa, never have B gred in my results~
it is hard~
since i will taking professional ACCA paper in 2 years time~
scholarship requirement : cgpa must maintain 3.00 and above~
work hard for it!
hope a better result help e to gain better offer or scholarship for further studies.
2 years time, COMPLETE ACCA PAPERS !
5 years time, i want go travel with my own money and hopefully able to treat my parents to travel~
it is fine even it is just within malaysia.
10 years maybe, i can swipe to corporate world which is more challenging~
FUTURE,
uncertain~
NOW,
work hard~
RELATIONSHIP，
currently is not my cup of tea~
family problems make me not so trust it~ if the right person is not there, it is better single and enjoy my own life~ just don't a human that limit me.
sometime, writing is a good way to release my feelings and emotion~ happiness , in mind.... sadness, in written form. future, re-read it, maybe have different feel?
when can i go travel immediately without planning~
when can i travel alone to a stranger place?
there is people said: travel is to recognise and understand yourself, learn from the journey, and appreciate it~
end just like that~
a semester without 100% effort~
dunno what i doing actually~
not perform my best on presentation~
sick when final exam coming soon~
feel not well during exam~
no mood study when exam~
at some timing, feel i not yet prepare for study~
learned japanese level one during the sem~
erm....
it is cute, but unfortunately i cant memorize and trace each hiragana n katakana immediately~
promise myself to perform better in the coming semester~
priority should n must given to my study!
just let the boutique as a part time~
realise i really weak in marketing and publicity~
lesser and lesser people talking about the boutique~
the sales is considered bad~
not so good~
perhaps is due to just newly open~
sponsor the cultural exhibition in college, but no one redeem it~
realise i set the voucher terms n conditions wrongly~
it is not attractive people to visit the shop~
now semester break~
2 weeks~
not long compared to last time~
planning:
manage the boutique,
do some ACCA past year....
try learn japanese myself by song lyrics~
and try to expert the hiragana n katakana....
if i want to get a better cgpa, never have B gred in my results~
it is hard~
since i will taking professional ACCA paper in 2 years time~
scholarship requirement : cgpa must maintain 3.00 and above~
work hard for it!
hope a better result help e to gain better offer or scholarship for further studies.
2 years time, COMPLETE ACCA PAPERS !
5 years time, i want go travel with my own money and hopefully able to treat my parents to travel~
it is fine even it is just within malaysia.
10 years maybe, i can swipe to corporate world which is more challenging~
FUTURE,
uncertain~
NOW,
work hard~
RELATIONSHIP，
currently is not my cup of tea~
family problems make me not so trust it~ if the right person is not there, it is better single and enjoy my own life~ just don't a human that limit me.
sometime, writing is a good way to release my feelings and emotion~ happiness , in mind.... sadness, in written form. future, re-read it, maybe have different feel?
when can i go travel immediately without planning~
when can i travel alone to a stranger place?
there is people said: travel is to recognise and understand yourself, learn from the journey, and appreciate it~
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